"Fathers can seem powerful and overwhelming to their daughters. Let her see your soft side. Express your feelings and reactions. Tell her where you came from and how you got there. Let her see that you have had fears, failures, anxious times, hurts, just like hers, even though you may look flawless to her."
On May 12, 2012 my daughter Edyn was born. As she was handed to me in the delivery room, there was a moment of panic as I blurted out "I have never held a baby before." As I took her in my arms I knew that my life was changed forever. Changed like finding Christ, losing my Mother, pursuing my Wife. These moments are the only times that I knew without a shadow of a doubt that my life has changed forever. In my arms I held a life, a soul, a future of dreams, and daughter of God.
The second night of her life is when something extraordinary happend. We bonded. She was inconsolable and my wife Katie, after laboring natural and drug-free for 14 1/2 hrs. the day before, was exhausted. So I took Edyn in my arms for the next 4 hours of walking I prayed, sang, talked and cooed to her till her cries became whimpers and her whimpers gave way to sleep. I had fallen deeply in love with Edyn or "Bean" as I like to call her.
Now she is 10 months old and in that time my being of who I am and who I was has changed deeply. You see, I didn't initially want a girl. In fact, I cried when I found out he was a she. Yes I cried because she was a girl. However God knew what He was doing giving me this little gift.
Simply put Fatherhood has refined me in EVERYTHING I do. I look forward to continuing showing life to my daughter. By cherishing and pursuing her mother, loving my God, and getting to know WHO she is as a daughter, woman, and child of God.
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